BFN (warning. Strong language)

This little fucker right here..... this thing has caused me so much heart ache and so much stress. Month after month. Year after year. Pull after pill. I’m FINALLY four days late on my period and it’s STILL negative. I’m not even sad anymore I’m flat out angry. I’m angry that my body can’t do the one thing it is LITERALLY DESIGNED FOR!! I’m angry that everyone tells me “maybe it’s not your time yet” or “you can always adopt”. And then to see every damn day that another person is in jail due to child neglect. Or (since I work at a mental hospital) meth heads come in talking about how they haven’t seen their kids in two years because they no longer have custody over them. I would be such a great mom and yet I still haven’t had my chance to prove it. I’m SO angry... and yet I’m so heartbroken.