Second csection

I’m having my second csection in June and I’m honestly dreading it. I think about it constantly and it makes my stomach churn. My first csection was an emergency because I had pre eclampsia and my baby was breech. The surgery itself was horrible, I sobbed the whole time and hemorrhaged afterwards. Luckily the healing was surprisingly easy for me, I was up and walking normally within a week so I’m more nervous about the actual surgery again. I’ve been hearing from a bunch of other moms that the second csection is a lot easier and less chaotic especially when scheduled but I’m still really scared. Is that true??? I need some positive csection stories!