Missing someone that’s bad for you

How do you stop 🛑 I’ve distracted myself as much as I can but I keep hoping his number pops up ,

Although I know he’s bad for me, he’s the father of our unborn child. I don’t miss his bad ways obviously I just want us to get back on terms and things to get better. I know I need to be strong and put myself first and think about what’s best for me and this baby . But the heart wants what it wants and I can’t help feel how o do. One minute I feel like I don’t love him then next I wanna see his face and be in his arms

I know I’m confused and crazy 😞