It just hit me all over again

I miscarried at 7 weeks 2days with my first pregnancy I was due April 28th the day before my hubby and my 2nd wedding anniversary. Today my cousin (who found out the same day as me) went into labor with her second baby. I am so happy for them but I’m sad I’m not jealous I know I will get pregnant but after a miscarriage in September and a chemical in March now my due date approaching it’s just so hard and today just seems to be the day that it’s all coming back and I just can’t help but be sad and not one other person in my family has ever had a miscarriage so it’s really just my hubby and l. I guess I just needed to get this all out somewhere people who understand are.