I don’t know how to put this Into a complete sentence. It’s difficult trying to get my feelings and thoughts out in words as it is.

Sorry long rant.

Might be some typos.

My BF is 32 I’m 25. Long distance relationship. Love him to death. He’s getting his masters. I’m trying to save money just to even see him.

He wants to wait the three years for him to finish school till we live together. He doesn’t want me to live near him because his town is shit. I get that. But. It’s probably going to be another 5 years before we can start having a family. He’ll be 37. I feel like we’re wasting time. And life away. I’m wasting my young years being away from the man I love. I’m spending my “rest of our lives together “. Away from him. I want him to finish his school and don’t want to pressure him. But I’m dying being away from him and I think he thinks that I just mean like. Grargh I need to cuddle and be with you. That too but it’s killing me. I’m missing out on all the youthful stuff we can be doing. I’m wasting my twenties waiting for him.

I love at home. It’s miserable. I’m trying to save up to see him. But I have bills I want to get paid.

My cat babies of 17 years died and so I have been hit hard with depression, empty loneliest and anxiety. I want to get a dog but. I can’t living here and I don’t want to leave it behind when visiting la bf. So I can’t get any pets for at least 3 years. I have to be stuck here in half a room because I’m sharing it with my 6 year old sister. And getting nagged at by the step douche. And getting asked when I’m moving out every week. But there isn’t any apartments that area cheap enough near my work. And I can’t save money if I’m having to pay 700$++++ on rent and utilities.

Everyone around me is having their lives. Having kids getting promoted and I’m stuck at home at an entry level job. I’m the best at it and so they don’t want to move me up because there’s No one else that can do my job as well as me. And if someone is to be moved up it would be the lady whose worked here longer than me. But she is a lot slower than me so it would be a better idea for me to do the job. But if anyone gets the job but her. She will throw the biggest bitch fit in the world.

I’m stuck and I feel like there’s nothing I can do.