I just need to vent...

I’ve been married to my husband now for almost 2 years, together for 5 years. Ive always been a little heavier, but within the last year I have gained about 30 pounds (due to stress, bad eating habits, slacking on exercise, etc.) so I am not loving my body lately and I do not really feel pretty or sexy anymore.

Add this to the fact that within the last two months, my husband barely touches me. He gives me a peck on the cheek when he gets home from work and that is all the physical contact we have had (outside one night we had sex, no kissing, foreplay, etc.). I try to hold his hand, lay my head on his chest while we are in bed, kiss him, hug him, but he pulls away or says he’s hot and doesn’t want to cuddle. We sleep in the same bed, but roll to opposite sides. We used to cuddle every evening, he used to kiss me anytime he left the room, and he always used to hold my hand in public. I tried to bring it up once last month and he laughed and acted like I was blowing it out of proportion and acting crazy for thinking that so I haven’t brought it up since.

I’m just hurt and frustrated. I know he loves me, but there is no romance or attraction anymore. I don’t know how to go about fixing things if he just laughs off anything I say about the topic. I don’t know what to do anymore 😔

Thank you to any of you who stuck out this rambling mess.