My husband and i are expecting our 3rd baby. He is about to start a second job, working day and night full time to help pay the bills. Both jobs are over 2 hours away from our home. My sister was my only support system as shes the only family or friend i have in this state, in Idaho, the rest of our family is in Florida. But now shes moving states away before the baby is born. Im having a home birth and with notoriously fast labors even my midwife is wondering if she will make it on time..Just scared and looking for other moms who have been through this too so i dont feel so alone..Tomorrow ill be 36 weeks, im feeling guilty because I want to be excited for when my daughter is born but my mind is so clouded by fear its hard to get excited. Any tips on how to make this a positive experience ?