Looking for Postpartum weightloss inspiration

Basically my pre pregnancy weight was 133lbs. Lowest ive ever been was 120lbs. Im 5'2 btw.

Anyways my end pregnancy weight was 170lbs. When i gave birth i immediately shrunk and loss a lot of weight the following days. (I had planned to pump because i heard it helped lose the weight) only did it for a week because i was so exhuasted. I lacked so much sleep because the baby slept awful. Horribly sleep deprived me and my husband.

Then during my 6 weeks maternity leave from work. I never went out as it was winter in december. I ate junk food and gained it all back and then just kept going. Now 4 months post partum and im probably a little over 170 now so considered obese for my height.

Im disgusted with myself, of how i look. Ive never looked like this. I remember never being "skinny" but i was healthy and looked great, even my skin and face looked nice.

Now i look like im old (only 21) cant fit into anything, just super uncomfortable in this body. Not happy. Depressed.

But i have no inspiration to lose the weight. I try thinking to be healthy, to feel good, to look and feel nice, everything but none of it makes me feel like trying. When i was 17 i remember one summer i got all this inspiration to lose weight, dropped 15lbs with exercise at home, lots of walking too as i was active that summer.

I cant seem to find that girl, to find the will or energy to do it. No postpartum depression at all just feel like its hopeless to drop this weight, my legs hurt too and i know its caused back pains.

I cant even put together a routine. Any routines for at home anyone has? Advice even?

I talk to my husband about it and hes supportive and is working on losing weight too and excited and says if we do it together it'll be better. But i just dont have the inspiration like him to do it.