Is it ok to just feel fucking sorry for yourself

Everyone telling everyone you need to love yourself and lift yourself up but I’ve been trying that for years honestly and it’s a fucking lie I tell myself. I’m done being fake to myself. My life is fucked. I’m super unlucky. I’m ugly. I have a lot of medical problems. Nobody takes me seriously. I’ve been abused either physically, emotionally, or sexually by every boyfriend and other people. My life is going nowhere. I’ve made so many stupid ass choices in my life. Yes it could be worse it always could be worse but I feel like life is a living hell for me. Is it ok to just admit this all to myself and feel like shit about my shit life