I downloaded this app to help me cope and I’ve seen so much support that I don’t have in my personal life and decided to tell my story. I’m 20 years old and lost my first child about five months ago. Since I’m young, I don’t feel much support, my friends won’t talk to me and family won’t talk to me about the miscarriage because of denial. The same day I miscarried I learned I was pregnant, I was about 9/10 weeks along. I was in denial about pregnancy because I was on birth control and the month I expected my period it came a day early, or so I thought, now I know it was implantation bleeding. The month after I thought I also had my period but looking back it wasn’t. About two weeks later, I saw my child and that’s when I knew. For months I was in denial and didn’t tell anyone. At the time the baby’s dad and I had broken up about two weeks before. The only person that seems to care is the baby’s dad but is grieving on his own since I didn’t tell him until last month. My family is in denial and doesn’t want me to talk about it because my pregnancy was not expected. Coping is difficult right now as I’d be in the homestretch of my pregnancy. What makes it even harder, baby was due 2 days before my birthday and a week before his dad’s. I had a strong maternal instinct he was a boy and have named him to help me cope as well. As Mother’s Day approaches as well as my due date, I’m sure it won’t get much easier, especially as so many people around me are either pregnant or have just given birth.