Feeling so defeated

I’m out this month. 10 dpo bfn. I had what I thought was implantation bleeding last night. I was woken up at about 2 am and when I wiped I had ewcm and light pink spotting( not mixed together) and then later that day, I found a tiny pea sized brown dot in my underwear. My period didn’t start so I thought that it was implantation bleeding. I also wake up feeling exhausted, and I’ve been tired throughout the day which isn’t like my normal self. I guess my body is just changing. I hate feeling like I’m pregnant and then I get a negative. Hopes to next month