Finally free

Howdy all,

I was with my partner for almost two years. Two years of begging him to be affectionate towards me. Two years of catching him hiding the fact he was talking to other women. Two years of being used for sex and never being treated as though my satisfaction was a priority. Two years of never feeling sexy enough or as though I was wanted. Almost two years of being treated as inferior and simple minded. Two years of all of these things. I’m finally free.

In February, I found out I was pregnant. After having a mental breakdown in the bathroom for a good two hours because i knew he wouldn’t take it well, I told him. He left me to over think the situation for hours on end when he finally contacted me. He treated the situation as a burden. He told me it was my fault and that I had fucked up his life for good. He watched me cry on my living room floor and laughed in my face afterwards as he made sure that I knew that I was one of the biggest disappointments he’d ever had.

In the following weeks, he made certain to only come see me whenever it was the only other thing to do on his list. When he did come, he expected me to cater to him and make sure he was taken care of. Whenever I fought of the intense, all day morning sickness. He let me know that i was being weak and that it “wasn’t that bad”. He never bothered to come to any doctors appointments.. The only type of effort he made was an attempt to force me to marry him (with the threat of losing him).

Since my refusal of this ultimatum, I’ve been treated like even more of a burden and embarrassment. I’ve had enough. Over the past two days, I let him know I had enough. His response to me was that i was being too demanding and that just because I’m pregnant, doesn’t mean he has to be there for me. Today was my breaking point and while it hurts to know I won’t be missed. It feels so good to finally be free. I’m upset with myself it took this long, but man does it feel good.