I can't stop crying

I really thought this was my month. After miscarrying in December 2018, we've been trying ever since and once again nothing but disappointment.

I'm 6 days late,

I took this cheap strip test 2 days ago and thought i could see something (now i'm thinking it must be evap)

I took a couple more and a stick test the next day which was negative.

I ordered first response early detection which arrived today and as soon as it arrived i took it, however it couldn't be more of a BFN 😢

On top of all of this my partner has now decided he doesn't want to try anymore and is no longer ready.

I'm heartbroken as it's all I've thought about, all i've wanted for so long, the only thing that would ever make me happy.

I'm losing hope, and now he doesn't want to try anymore.