Drinking problem while ttc 😞

Idk how it started but I got into the habit of drinking every single night. 2-3 shots of hard liquor every night. Sometimes more. I guess I got addicted to the sleepy feeling because when I was pregnant back in January I obviously had to stop drinking & I had trouble falling asleep. I miscarried at 5w6d. Although I didnt drink during the 2 weeks I knew I was pregnant, I feel like it definitely attributed to losing the pregnancy.

It's been 4 months & we've been actively ttc again with no luck. I also havent stopped drinking. Havent cut back at all. I wanted to believe it wasnt the problem but after this last failed cycle I'm finally convinced.

So I'm gonna stop drinking. 😊 I want this baby so bad! My 4th & last baby.

If you got this far, Thanks for reading. I just wanted to tell someone.