Hi everyone! Definitely in need of advice. But long story!

My husband and I found out we were pregnant and due July 8th, we were so excited and come to find out my sister in law (his brothers wife) found out she was pregnant too. Due July 9th.

I experienced a miscarriage on Dec 25th. It was pretty horrific, I had hemorrhaged and almost had to have a hysterectomy, I felt like I was going to die. But I’m so grateful for the OB on call because the ER doctor had no idea what to do.

We are so lucky to have found out recently that we are expecting again on Dec 21st, still early so I’m optimistic but hopeful.

But my real problem is I’m having the worst time seeing her getting bigger and having her baby shower next month. Trust me I’m so grateful to be able to get pregnant again and hopefully this one sticks. But I can’t still help but feel jealous and angry. I only talk to my husband about it but he thinks I’m being too emotional and hormonal. Which makes me go even more crazy. Maybe it will get better when I go to my first appointment and see this baby. I never got to see my other baby due to my Doctor being out for maternity leave.