Missed miscarriage 😭

The day I found out my husband and I were pregnant I was head over heels! My husband, not so much. He was scared. The turn around was how excited he would get telling our closest friends that we were expecting. The first dr. Appointment- great! Healthy baby, healthy mommy! Blood work and urinalysis- perfect, my levels where they were supposed to be and all was negative. Second appointment for genetic testing and met with the nurse was scheduled. I was so impatient and couldn’t wait for more food news.

The day came, May 6th which I’ll never forget. All amped up talking with the nurse about the prenatal process and insurance and what’s to come in the future along with classes they provide for my husband and I. Next, went to see my Dr. and so we get down to business to see the baby and hear it’s heartbeat.

“ I’m sorry, I don’t see any growth .”

Devastating pause...

“ I also don’t see or hear the heartbeat.”

“I am so sorry.”

Not the dialogue I thought was going to happen. Of course I lost it! Then it was suggested to visit another office for a second opinion. Of course I went right over there. Tears and all but still praying hard!!!

Same outcome, and I am an idiot for looking at the monitor where I can see a little human inside of me.

Devastating to say the least. My husbands out of town for another week. My D&C is not until another week. Emotions are extreme at this point.

I simply grieve and tell myself it wasn’t meant to be this time. I just pray that there will be a time!