Postpartum body😔

I have always struggled with loving my body, and after I had my son I gained so much weight. I went from a size 5 to a size 13, and I was having a rare day of feeling confident in my skin and decided to go shopping since I need clothes that fit me. I spent 45 minutes alone trying on different things, from swimsuits to shorts to pajama pants to dresses, and everything looked terrible. I ended up leaving the store in tears. I love to swim but my body makes me not want to even go outside, let alone go out in a swimsuit to a pool, and it’s hard. So. Hard. Is there any moms out there that struggle with this? And if there is, what did you do help yourself? I exercise daily and eat as healthy as I can, and I just feel like giving up since I’m seeing so little results. It’s been 4 months since my beautiful son was born and I want another child, but if my body will get worse I don’t know if I can handle it😣