Should I go?

So my best friend invited me up to see her. It’s a 2 hour flight and I would bring my daughter who will be 5 months at the time.

The thing is, i am having so much anxiety. A HUGE part of me wants to go and desperately misses her, but I’m stressed about navigating an airport with a baby alone, especially because I’ve only flown 3 times my whole life.

Another issue is my husband and I don’t spend much time apart. Since we’ve been living together (as of 5 years ago) we haven’t spent more than a night apart. He is fully in support of me going to see my friend but I can’t fathom being away from him, especially with the baby, for so long.

My friend is pregnant and going through a really hard time right now and I know she needs me and I know she would, and has, come to see me in a heartbeat.

I have really bad anxiety issues and the stress of trying to make a decision is killing me. I decided to bite the bullet and sat down to buy the plane ticket and started having a panic attack.

I WANT TO GO SO BAD!!!!! But I’m so afraid.