Anyone else?

I’m having a really hard time getting excited about my little rainbow baby, I’m terrified that something will go wrong just like my angel baby and it’s making it nearly impossible for me to start getting pumped up about it, or even wanting to start a registry or plan my gender reveal or anything. Am I the only one that was having this issue?

Just FYI: my angel baby I lost an hour after birth, carried to term so I can’t even just get past where I was last time.