Note to self,

Please get it together, I know it’s a struggle. They said marriage and adult life was not going to be easy. It’s true, you feel so helpless and lonely, that at times you wonder are you even worth it? You love your family around you, don’t get yourself wrong, its that sometimes life can fuck you over so many times. You need to learn how to get back up and move forward. You wish life was much more easier, You wish You had your own place without your mother in law getting in the way of things, or someone to talk to when you’re in need of venting but You don’t. You do a lot on at your job to only get paid minimum, when you’ve been there for 3 years and have 5+ years of experience in that field. Your hands are full with a full time job and school. You hardly get to see your husband and when you do, there’s always arguments. There’s days where you want to disappear or fall apart, but you can’t because you NEED to keep it together. You see other people having fun with their lives having everything you want and ask yourself why can’t you have that? What are you doing wrong? When will it be your turn? Don’t lose faith when you’re having a day where you want to fall apart, it’s not good to keeping things bottled up or to put others before you’re self because at the end of the day you only have yourself. Be patient your time will come, or better yet, better things are to come. It’s okay to fall apart because no one is perfect. Just keep praying and push forward no matter what life throws at you. Please take this advice to move forward, everything will be okay, God will always be right beside you.