So I just want to vent and maybe I am really sensitive but I feel extremely sad lately. So my husband and I have 4 kids we found out last year we were expecting twins. We were trying for a third and got a fourth it’s a blessing but it’s HARD work. So anyways my parents live 13hrs away and I feel like all through my childhood I was never a priority like they didn’t care like a parent should. I seen a lot of my friends parents and they were different they were always there for their kids my parents never showed suppprt. Anyways we have a relationship and lately I feel like throwing in the towel and pardon my language but saying fuck off and stay away. They post on social media like they actually give a shit about my kids to make themselves look good but they never call to speak to my kids or try at all they are horrible grandparents. As for my husbands dad he’s he same way he told my husband on the phone that he doesn’t want to be a grandpa and that he never choose it. We have never asked for a dam thing we have done it all on our own. But seems like lately everything is falling apart around us and having no support makes me jut want to cry. My husband mom is a good woman and no matter what has been there for us. But even my own sister we are close but she says such shitty things and I am honestly ready to cut them all off. My kids don’t deserve to feel unwanted and like they are a burden to everyone. I thought my family and his dad would be so different because they acted like they were so happy for us. It’s just all one big lie. My dad works 4x4 and my mom calls me but it’s because she’s bored she barely pays attention she will honestly be sitting on Facebook and I will be telling her something and she is like o really like if you knew her you would understand why it’s annoying like I am just so done. I honestly am considering speaking to a professional because I feel like there is an underlying issue and I don’t know what it is but I feel unloved. I deleted my Facebook and my Instagram and blocked them off my phone I am really done. My husband supports all 6 of us and works hard and does everything he can we don’t have he best of the best but we pay our bills and put clothing and food on the table for our kids and show them unconditional love. . Like I am sorry I am half crying in this post and just going off because why can’t they see the damage they have caused. I had my first son and had such bad postpartum I remember begging my mom to come down and stay at our house and it was only 2hrs away and she refused this was my first time being a mom and because she wouldn’t stay a night away from my dad she wouldn’t come . It hurt so bad my own mom I don’t hate my mom and dad but I don’t like them. There were so many things as normal teenage girls go through they were never there to support me. My ex was a complete fucking moron who used to do horrible things to me and loke honestly if I ever seen my daughter get treated or pushed around I would be in big trouble cause I was attack that guy. They just didn’t care! I just feel like they are selfish toxic people and I am honestly cutting them off. Am I over reacting like I recently went off my anxiety medication because I felt better but it started coming back again and I mean I get it bad I always worry about my health and my heart I don’t know why but I can’t help it. I just want to talk to my mom because she’s my mom and she’s like get medication like no support or you will get through this just the easy way reply yet medication so she doesn’t have to try. I am sorry you have to hear my go off. This has been the hardest year of my life it’s been financially stressful and having no family or support sucks it’s taking a shit kicking on us and itahard to stay strong when it’s all falling apart around you. My husband on my sons birthday got his sled stolen where we kept it on his moms property and we planned to take my son out on his birthday riding around his moms property. When I told my mom it’s like she was glad and when I told her how upset t made us she didn’t want to hear about it. Like I could go for ages she’s not a very good person she has ruined my life and never supported me like a mother should. I remember her telling me at a young age my dad cheated on her I remember them wrecking birthdays because they would fight. It was a horrible upbringing and I feel like I have to end my relationship I have so much anger built up