Mom guilt

I honestly have such bad mom guilt from having my babies so close. I felt like I took away those special one on one moments I could of had for my oldest. He had to deal with my adjusting hormones and sharing his mommy at such a young age. My pregnancy was very hard and I have such a bad memory that I dont remember most of the times we got to spend together. I had a miscarriage when he was 12months and that knocked me down big time then got pregnant within the next month soo morning sickness and everything .

Anyone else have this ? Hes almost 4 and my youngest is almost 2 and I still randomly break down because of it

These 2 are inseparable, if you see one of them entering the room the other one is not far behind.

I just wish I had a little bit more time with my oldest as a baby. It went by way to fast.