FTM, 24 weeks and anxiety has kicked in

I don’t even know where to start I’m 31, a FTM and everything has started to worry me.

I’m worried about what’s going to happen during labour, about how I won’t be able to do it. I’m worried I’ll need an emergency section or something goes wrong.

I know it’s something I can’t really control but then when I try and tell myself this I start worrying about not knowing what to do with my baby when I’m left alone with him. I’m worried I’m going to be an absolutely awful mum and I won’t know what to do and when.

I get anxiety about the thought of going out in public with him on my own incase he cries and I can’t settle him. I’m worried people are going to judge me and that I’m going to let him down.

I feel like I’m a total failure before I’ve even had him.

Is it normal to have so many worries as a FTM?

My midwife is absolutely horrible so I’m not even going to bother talking to her about it.

Please tell me I’m not alone.