I finally did it’

I tried breaking up with him Saturday but I could not control my emotions and I said it but I guess he couldn’t understand me so today I did it.. I text him (yes I know it’s horrible but I couldn’t take seeing him cry again..) this is what I said

“Mason I honestly want to break up, but please listen to me, I know we talked about all this yesterday but I still don’t feel good about it and my mom is at the point she wants me to just stop and figure everything out because I’m starting to pull hair out a lot more frequently since I’ve been stresssing over this. There is no doubt in my mind that we will be best friends and I honestly hope god works our paths out and we come back to each other, I’m leaving it all in his hands because I can’t do this by myself anymore. I’m going to start to go to church and he’s going to turn my life around and fix me up, I’m so sorry I have to do this but it’s for my own health, I’ve been told that at this point I have to be selfish and think of myself . It hurts me so much to see you hurt like this may but you know I’m gonna be here for you no matter what. I love you so much, I’m sorry. I still want to be able to go to graduation with you and support you but I understand if you don’t want me to.. “