Undoubtedly my biggest flaw are my jealous habits.

I know they stem from the fact that I have always struggled with low self esteem, anxiety and my past relationships have burned me bad.

My current boyfriend is the sweetest most wonderful man who I do have so much trust in and I know would never hurt me. We have been dating for 7 months and so far so good.

This past week i logged on to his iPad for something and was pulled into his iMessages. I found messages from 5 months ago with a few different girls one of them his ex girl friend. None of them suggestive or flirty. Just normal conversations and questions. But that alone was enough to make me worry and stress out that something was going on. Keep in mind these texts were 5 months old...

I know that this is completely embarrassing and nothing to be proud of but I’m sharing it for the sake of you understanding where my heads at. The fact that I even went and looked at his messages is a problem in and of itself. It is such a toxic mindset and it is not fair for me to behave this way... to myself or to my partner.

I was wondering if anyways has ever overcome jealousy and learned how to put my thoughts at ease. Or perhaps ways to build my self confidence and security.. I really don’t want to live like this anymore