Jealous and upset

Everytime I see an announcement on here I just can't help myself but be jealous 😭 I want to have twins so bad, but won't even get pregnant in the first place 🤦🏻‍♀️ it's gonna be my last pregnancy, so really want it to be twins. Ugh, I feel like I'm self sabotaging with all this obsessing about twins. What's wrong with me ,🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️