My boyfriend and I have been together almost 2 years, we have known eachother for the better part of 20 years. He and my brother used to be best friends growing up. We both know oneanothers family very well I love them and they love me. There is so much to our story I wouldn't even be able to write it all so I'm going to make it as short and to the point as I can.

He went to prison 5 years ago and got out in November of 2015 (because of my brother). I went to prison while he was "away" for lack of a better term and went to the same Federal half way house he had just left. This was April of 2016. Once I got my hands on a phone with internet I reached out to him, he asked where I had been and I told him what happened with me (very long story) and I told him I had just got back home. (He was so mad at me, not because I went "away" but the situation behind it) and told me "If I EVER NEED ANYTHING to call him or his OG (Mom). I thought nothing of it we're friends. Once I was finished at the halfway house and in my own place I called him so we could chill and have a drink. We hung out and I have never felt more comfortable with anyone in my life. We made it a weekly thing going to the beach having drinks going to music festivals etc. One night we were out mad late and my roommate got pissed and flipped out on me while he was in the house. So I asked him to take me to a hotel so that I could get a room and let that crazy bitch calm down. Needless to say he ended up staying with me at the hotel. When I say BEST SEX EVER it doesn't even begin to describe it HOLY SHIT... The next day he took me home and he went home and proceeded to text me telling me that he has had a crush on me since the first time my brother ever took him to our parents house. (I'm older than him) I asked him why it took him so long to say something or act on it (He blamed it on our ages) fast forward 2 years we are still together, we live together for about a year now. We have never had an argument we never get loud with eachother. My question is why am I sooo afraid to tell him that I love him.... All of my relationships have ended badly to say the least and he knows almost all of my ex's. I need advice. I want him to know how i feel but I'm so fucking afraid rhose three words will change everything.