I’ve been having a hard time talking about but I thought I’d give this a try. My husband and I were trying to conceive for 1 year and a half. Been through so many tests and doctors appointments just to find out nothing was wrong with either of us beside the fact that my period is irregular. Finally after being a month late for my period I got a faint line. I got to see the baby 2 times, and heard the heartbeat. We told everyone right away because we were so excited. Husband left on deployment after our first appointment. But something just didn’t feel right to me. I started having miscarriage nightmares and getting bad feelings. Started spotting and then started bleeding. Went to emergency and was told the baby was fine, went to my midwife and found out I was miscarrying at 10 weeks. The pain was horrible, and when I finally passed the baby I felt useless and depressed. It’s been a couple weeks since the loss, but I still hurt. Especially watching everyone else’s pregnancies progress. I can’t help but feel jealous towards my coworkers who found out around the same time as me. Sometimes I think I even give it away. I’m hoping I can start a family soon and will not be a nervous wreck.