He emailed me again.

Nothing big, but gave me his new number and told me to text him and also apologized.

I haven’t had contact with him in months.

I’m doing so well and have no drama in my life.

Last we spoke, I was not in a good place and almost met up with him.

He got thrown in jail, yet again, but this time his Aggravated assault resulted in a serious bodily injury.

That could have been me.

That was me six years ago, but I didn’t press charges and I stayed with him on and off for three years.

I finally hit rock bottom.

I finally saw the light and got help.

I went to therapy and did a lot of self help.

I now understand why I stayed with him.

I now understand what attracted me to him.

I’ve since changed my ways and thought patterns that lead me to him.

I now suffer social anxiety from everything he put me through.

I now struggle with regular speech because of what he did to me.

The psychological damage is real.

I’m still healing.

I feel like a recovering addict who’s dealer just reached out with a killer bargain.

I don’t want to go back down that rabbit hole.

I’ve rekindled and rebuilt trust in most of my friendships from before.

I don’t want to lose those friends again.

I want to stay strong.

I know I can stay strong.

I won’t go back to him.

I won’t reply to him.

I want to reply but I know I must not.

It took all my strength to delete that message.

But there are other mediums I can reach out to him... fb, sc, ig, and more.

Dear god please give me the strength to stay away.