Tired of hating my body💔

I’m so tired of feeling disgusting!! I know I shouldn’t be so hard on myself because I had my baby boy on March 12th. I should love my body for giving me such a precious baby, but it’s so hard! My pre pregnancy weight was 236 & I got all the way up to 250 at the end & now I’m 218😩 Today I’ve decided to change my life forever & get healthy for not just me, but also for my sweet boy❤️ It took me A LOT to take these pictures & even more to post them. My only issue is that it hurts where I got my epidural at to lay on the floor. Am I the only one? Will it ever go away?

Please don’t comment any negativity. I already manage to do that for myself. Tips on workouts & anything dealing with food are welcomed💕