Infertility Silence

Mrs.Burns💋 • Married Happily Ever After, Chemical Angel in Heaven 05/04/17, October baby of ‘98, TTC#1 that sticks.

Infertility Explained By A Doctor:

Not getting pregnant despite having carefully timed, unprotected sex for one year.

Infertility Explained By a Woman/Couple:

Infertility isn’t a word we usually use, we just choose to not tell anyone. infertility is getting asked every time you see your family “When your going to have a baby”

Infertility is finally going to the doctor and having your soul ripped out when they diagnose you.

Infertility is when you choose the Clomid pill and have test done, along with IVFs and IUIs, to only realize they fail.

Infertility is a child asking you why your on this sight seeing positives and Raw births if you’re not pregnant or have a baby.

Infertility is the heartbreak so silent when someone says they will have a baby for you. “Why would it matter they say? They have the same blood as you.”

Infertility is something your family thinks they know all about. “It took us a long time to get pregnant” but THEY DONT KNOW OUR PAIN!!!

They don’t see HOW BAD HEARTBREAK IS FOR US. THEY DONT HOLD THEIR BELLIES AT 4AM HOPING AND PRAYING THAT THIS CYCLE WORKED, because You checked your cervix EVERYDAY. Had sex 2 weeks after your period everyday until the day after your EWCM.

They don’t know the emptiness not only in your arms/ belly but the deepness in your heart. They don’t know LOSS OR FAILURE BECAUSE LOOK AT THEM. THEY HAVE THEIR HANDS FULL WITH 3 beautiful children but there’s days where she says “She can’t handle them” or “That one was an accident” when your begging for your own. To feel what mother-hood feels like to see the BFP YOU HAVE GROWN HOPELESS FOR. Checking every symptom to make sure it’s really pregnancy or another period. YOU DONT WANT TO ADOPT because it’s not the same because you can’t love something that isn’t yours like pregnancy, where you love the baby not knowing what it is, or what it’s gonna look like. Loving it because every heartbeat, kick and sickness was all worth it. YOU DONT WANT TO HAVE SOMEONE BE YOUR FORSAKEN SURROGATE That you get to watch daily and listen to them complain about how the baby is killing them and they hate everything about pregnancy they are just in it for the money. Infertility becomes a jealousy towards the younger cousins that are having their babies before you. Or having another one and couldn’t wait to surprise their bfs or husbands just to see their reaction was “SO PRICELESS” They say “I know exactly where your coming from” or “exactly how I feel”

BUT DO YOU REALLY? How many times have you sat up and GOOGLED every symptom hoping it was pregnancy and looking up every symptom past ovulation FILLING YOUR HEAD WITH ANOTHER LIE AND SO MUCH BULLSHIT!

HOW MANY DAYS DID YOU TEST OVER AND OVER SQUINTING TRYING TO MAKE OUT EITHER A HOPELESS FAINT POSITIVE or JUST ANOTHER FUCKING EVAP LINE THAT YOUR MOST FAMILIAR WITH. You didn’t you got Your BFP on 5/6/7/8 DPO’s

DO YOU REALLY KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO listen to everyone say they would have a baby for you or ask you why arent you pregnant yet or had a child ask you why you were on this app looking at positive preg test and birth photos if you don’t have a baby and ALL YOU CAN DO IS SIT BACK SHUT YOUR MOUTH AND HOLD THE TEARS BACK BEFORE YOU GET UP AND GO TO THE BATHROOM TO CRY FOR AN HOUR. NO because you got pregnant the very first try and no one asked you anything because you were just Fertile Motherfucking Mertile.

YOU DONT KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO SAY: I can’t stand females that get pregnant back to back without trying and here I am hoping and praying for one. I would be such a better mother.

No YOU DONT BECAUSE YOUR RESPONSE WAS: “WELL SORRY IT JUST HAPPENED HE WOULDNT STAY AWAY FROM ME AND I COULD GET PREGNANT JUST LOOKING AT HIM.” Or having to DREAD ANOTHER MOTHERS DAY BECAUSE THATS WHEN YOU HAD A CHEMICAL PREGNANCY AND ALL YOU GET TO HEAR IS : “THIS IS MY DAY” or you get Wished a Happy Mother’s Day even though you’re not.a mother from your step dad.

****SO BEFORE YOU SAY YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS OR WHAT WE ARE GOING THROUGH MAKE SURE YOU READ THIS BECAUSE WE HAVE BEEN TRYING OVER A YEAR COMPARED TO YOUR 1 MONTH.****** I speak for all women BATTLING INFERTILITY WATCH THE THINGS YOU SAY TO US YOU DONT KNOW HOW WE FEEL ITS BEST YOU JUST STFU AND MIND YOUR BUSINESS AND STOP ASKING US ABOUT OUR INFERTILITY AND ASK US HOW ARE WE DOING MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY.