Birth worries/thoughts..

So, this is my second pregnacy. And my biggest fear is labor in general. I had a really hard labor with my daughter. It was 30 hours. My bp was so high and i got an epidural but it did not work for me. So honestly the whole thing was traumatizing. I was in so much pain and i think being induced made it worse obviously. But Im so scared and know Im making it worse by thinking and worrying myself about it but I just can't help it. Has any had any experience with getting an epidural and it not working/ high bp during labor? Should I plan on going natural(be prepared) or should I try again? Other methods that help? Im just so nervous and scared. I just feel i wasnt prepared and maybe it was because it was my first and i was naive?