So I have a 1.5 year old son who’s sooo happy all the time!

We had a miscarriage in January around 6 weeks pregnant. It was devastating. Now I’m about 8.3 weeks with our little rainbow (I got very lucky it didn’t take long to conceive again. I prayed and prayed.) my first pregnancy I left the biological dad as he was abusive I was so stressed I chain smoked (I’m terrible. I know. It was so hard. I ended up cutting back and fully quitting) I had NO symptoms, no problems, I had the perfect pregnancy, went into labour right on my due date, was in labour less than 12 hours and pushed for 30 min and he came out perfectly at 7.5lbs. He ate great he was always above average. Now after a miscarriage I can’t help but think this pregnancy is going to end in another miscarriage and I still smoke. I’m cutting back to hopefully quit soon. I still pee every 10 min, my mouth tastes like metal, I still get the random minor belly cramps, I’m still slightly nauseous. I feel pregnant. For sure. But what can I do to ease my paranoia and anxiety 😭😭. My ultrasound isn’t until the 7th next week on Friday I’ll be about 9.5 weeks. Late to make sure hubby could be there. He’s adopted my first son. We met when I was still pregnant with him and he’s an amazing dad. But I don’t want him to miss out on the important appts.

Also please don’t judge me for still smoking. I know it’s terrible. My doctor said if I quit cold turkey it’ll do more harm then good.