Ttc is making me an emotional mess 😥

I am going insane ladies! I am 7dpo and am due for a period in a week. The last week or so I have been feeling extremely bloated, boobs sore getting headaches/backaches and been nauseous. We desperately want a boy and everywhere I look people are getting BFP etc. I am just getting sadder and sadder each month AF arrives 😕. I can test in 3 days but am afraid to. 😞 With both of my girls, I found out super early, between 2-6 weeks along. Any suggestions ladies?