TRYING to convince

Hello, I’m new here and a little bit about myself I’m 33 with no kids I have been pregnant twice one led to a miscarriage and I gave birth to my daughter 3/15/06 which she later on passed away 4/20/06 I do not know the cause till this day. So which then in the 14 years I have not gotten pregnant again not that I don’t want kids bc I want a child more than life! Me and my bf have been together for 11 years he has no kids as well. So last month I asked him if he wanted to start our own little family he agreed so I really really thought I was going to be a mom last month! Really quick huh lol but no I had all the symptoms and took a pregnancy test seen a really faint line but nothing 😭 and unfortunately my cycle started today 😭 so I just really pray that this month be it! 14 years is a very long time! So pray that this is the end of my ttc journey