Hi I'm a 30 year old mother of two struggling with depression for most of my life and never knew why I was molested @ a tender age of 6 and went on for almost 2 years by my best friends father and I blocked out most of that time and about 3 days ago on my b-day I had an argument with my molesters son we live across from each other i see the man every day because my mom did not press charges . But yes as we argu I came to realize that it was the root of my mental state he has stolen my childhood. Joy ability to express love he has done stuff that wil make your skin crawl and it was a flash back and today am afraid all the time for my boys am unable to trust i don't like being touch even by my husband i scared being alone @ night when hubby is not home I can't even sleep and blaming and hurting myself for the smallest mistake and I hate it I'm using drugs to keep me calm . We're to from now