We only have sex on his terms?

The husband and I only have sex once or twice a week and I’ve never been okay with this. I’d be more comfortable with three or four times a week. The problem here is that we ONLY have sex when HE wants to, on HIS terms. I’m not exaggerating when I say that every single time I’ve tried to initiate sex, he turns me down. Every. Single. Time.

Well, this past week he refused to touch me. Until Saturday. And when we did have sex on Saturday, it was boring and really disappointing; there was one minute or foreplay, then he made me get on top, where I did all of the work until he finished five minutes later. I was made to wait a whole week for five minutes of disappointment. I know I sound bitchy and ungrateful, but I’ve never felt more ugly and undesirable in my whole life. I usually don’t mind that he watches porn. But; he rejects me every single time I try to initiate only to turn around and masturbate when I leave.

I’ve tried everything. I’ve tried talking about how I feel, but he absolutely refuses to talk, refuses to listen, and refuses to change. It’s like, we only have sex when he wants to and that’s that. I’m so tired of being rejected. I feel so ugly and unwanted. Not to mention frustrated. Once a week is not enough for me, but he doesn’t care. And obviously, it’s not something I would ever want to force, but this doesn’t feel fair. He rejects me every time, but when he’s in the mood, he expects me to spread my legs and be ready.

I’m so frustrated and I don’t know what to do.