I just can’t sleep

And I just can’t stop thinking about how i feel my strong symptoms during week 5-7 are fading away

I’m not feeling so confident now about my pregnancy even though on Wednesday we got our first appointment and ultrasound and saw -didn’t hear- a hear beat motion (i truly hate kaiser for this, why can’t they let us hear the hear beat?)

I had 2 miscarriages last year and after a year of trying i figured my thyroid was too high to get pregnant. Immediately after starting my thyroid treatment i got pregnant.

Symptoms kept me positive but now at week 8 ( more like 7weeks and 4 days) I feel something is not right

My breast are not as tender, my nausea are almost gone, i feel more energy and I’m not as tired. I had lots of cramping all up to week 6 - all gone now

I have no pain or haven’t bled

Is it normal?

I remember with my now 3yo (second pregnancy) i felt differently. I had hard time with smells and breast were tender. I know each pregnancy is different but how much difference can they be? I’m so paranoid after last year’s losses. I just don’t want to go through all that again

Im blessed with all I have maybe I’m asking for too much

I feel I cannot wait 4 weeks for my next appointment

I need a hug