Getting closer to the one year mark ...

AF showed up a day early which is quite unusual but at least allowed me to stop wondering whether or not it was our month. It was a very emotional day.

My husband’s semen analysis results are great and so far my results are within normal range also. We’ve got our first appointment with a fertility specialist in 3 weeks.

I was so excited when we started trying but now we’re about to start our 11th cycle and every month I just feel so inadequate. We’ve been using OPKs since the beginning so I know we’re hitting the fertile days every single month and my cycles are quite regular.

I know how much mindset affects it all but how do you stop thinking about it when it’s the one thing you want so much? I have such a hard time believing it will ever happen. I don’t even think I’m obsessing, the only time I find it really hard is the second week of the TWW.

We had a miscarriage in February at about 5 weeks and since then I had stopped exercising and unfortunately started indulging in food so I’m now left with a few extra kilos. Still within healthy range but it’s that vicious cycle of eating to feel better and feeling bad because you’re not happy with your body. This will be my next goal : cut down sugar and going back to exercising more regularly.

I just feel very emotional and needed to share.

Thank you for reading !