Relieved plz read

I just want to share something with u guys no negative comments plz i am 23

Been in a toxic abusive relationship with a narcissist. We broke up i got preg for him he abused me more bc i was preg he also told me tht he didn’t want the baby and tht the baby will never mean anything to him and i am stupid for keeping a baby and etc just verbally abusing me .

At first i was like no i am giving him what he .Then the verbal abuse kept getting worse wit him so i decided to block him from everything and keep the baby. So one day i thought abt it and was like i don’t want to be stuck with this toxic and abusive person for the rest of my life even if we are not together he will not be there for the baby or even meet the baby so i decided to do the abortion for myself bc i do not want to bring a child into this world with a deadbeat father who verbally abuse their mother i didn’t want to put my child through the drama bc i grew up seeing my dad abuse my mom.He didn’t even tell his family that i was preg and he has never contacted me since i told him i was preg and after the verbal abuse and it been weeks ago.

So today i did my abortion and i was depressed at first. Fast forward after the procedure was done i haven’t felt so free and relieved in my life i started crying tears of joy i dnt want to sound selfish, but i was so proud of myself bc i overcame the hurt and darkness that this person has caused me in my life and now tht i aborted the baby which is his i felt so good that i can start over and actually move on to a better person in the future iam glad i made this decision it was a life changer for me .