Ranting

Hello all!

I am completely on edge!! Everything my partner is doing is making me want to throw something. I don’t even want him speaking to me, that’s how annoyed I am. I feel like I’m going to lose it and just start screaming.

I had asked him to quit smoking cigarettes by last Christmas. That came and went. We found out about the pregnancy in January and I told him it’s very very important to quit, thinking the baby would be motivation. I found not one but TWO empty packs yesterday and I ask him all the time if he’s buying them and he’s telling me no. Now I know he’s lying which is pissing me off even more. I brought it up today and he just doesn’t acknowledge and just says that he’s trying. I get that it’s hard but trying since November at this point and still buying them?! Am

I a bitch for saying that he’s not trying hard enough?! I know if I say that it he will get defensive because that’s one of his go tos when we argue. That I don’t see that he’s trying..and I do see he’s trying but to me, it’s not hard enough. Does he not care if his son loses his father when he’s under 18 because of lung or throat or mouth cancer. He’s going to be 38 this year and he’s been smoking since he was a teenager. That’s already a long time!!

My dad quit cold turkey after smoking for years, I know that’s not common but this “I’m trying” crap is not cutting it. It’s the same convo over and over and over and today because I’m already feeling on edge, I want to rip his head off about it for the umpteenth time.

To me, if you don’t care enough for your kid to do it, are you ever going to quit?! I have told him in the passed that this is a make it or break it thing and him just blowing it off and going behind my back really makes me sad.

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