Dating Again...Help!

Hello, first thanks for reading, hopefully you are able to comment some advice. I’m all eyes and ears.

( So for context I’m in 23 just moved out to my own place this February (whoop! Whoop!) And I do work full time and go to school part time. Okay now that’s a out of the way, on with the rest.⬇️)

I went through a rather difficult breakup this past February (it’s now June) and while I’m grateful for the experience of it all I am finding it difficult to decipher what I am ready for and what I am not ready for.

I’m on a dating app trying to just get back out there and I’m not even fully sure if I’m ready 😬. I just wanted to stop thinking about my ex. He was a big love and while the decision to end things was mutual it was defiantly coming more from him than me. I also found out he wasn’t honest about the real reasons he wanted to break up which made me resent him now. ( He basically said he needed a stronger person than me. And he couldn’t be with someone who wasn’t.)

Should I be dating if I still hate and miss this guy?

Should I try hookups? What’s healthy right now?

I just know that I can’t sit around doing nothing because then I will start to miss him and want to text him and inherently apologize for our situation. And I refuse to go back to that.

Please help😭🙏🏻