Husband doesn’t like my boobs, I’m crushed

I’m so hurt and fucking insecure

I have always been insecure about my boobs because they are so big on my smaller frame. I’m thick, I have an hourglass figure but my boobs have always been such a burden to me. I wouldn’t even show them to him when we first started dating but eventually I got more comfortable and he has always claimed to love them so much and every time I’ve mentioned a boob job or reduction he would get upset and so he definitely didn’t want that he’s always called them perfect. Everytime he would just say they are so perfect.

Well lately he’s literally been hinting at me getting a boob job. He got better insurance and said we can get you on my insurance so you can fix your boobs... imlike what? And he’s like I know you’ve been wanting to, but I haven’t mentioned it in forever. And he’s said other things lately as well.

Just earlier he was grabbing my boobs (we were cuddling) and he said hopefully The baby can suck some of these down when she’s born.... I’m like what??? Do you not like my boobs? And he’s like no I do. And I was like do you think they are perfect? And he said no.... then he was like “they would be perfect if they were bigger” which I know isn’t true so I’m like wait why are you being so weird just be honest. And he’s like well they’re perfect cuz they are on you no matter how they look......and I’m like so you don’t like them like you’ve always said? And then he got SO MAD and said quit fucking nagging me you’re so annoying.......

Wtf you guys. I feel like all of my confidence is completely shattered again and I’m right back to being insecure about my boobs. I don’t even want him to touch them or me.

**its not about the boob job comment it’s about the comment he made after - they’re perfect cuz they’re on u it doesn’t matter how they look - meaning he doesn’t like how they look

And I haven’t mentioned having a boob job in over a year because I’ve become comfortable with them and he’s always told me how much he loves them