I feel disgusting. My partner rarely wants to touch me, while my friends and family have been avoiding me where I’m ‘always in a bad mood’. I try my hardest to be positive, whether it’s fake or even when I’m having a good day. Nobody likes to be or feel like a ‘drag’, yet my efforts to hide my feelings clearly isn’t going well.

I’m nearly finished with my first pregnancy, the changes upon my body have caused me to cover up and hide away no matter what. I can’t even look at myself in the mirror without feeling like I’m not ‘me’ anymore. Stretch marks have made their appearance while a major breakout smothers my face. I’m stressed. I’ve always been the self conscious and low self esteem kind of girl, but I never expected to feel this shit during the time that’s supposed to be the best of my life. I’m miserable and picking faults in every direction. I just need some guidance. I can’t even talk to people over the phone without feeling like I’m a walking goddamn problem anymore.