Today I was finally brave enough to open up about being pregnant with my rainbow while I’m taking methadone on my YouTube channel. I have been TERRIFIED to open up about taking the medication while pregnant because I know there is a lot of misinformation and myths surrounding it and I didn’t want anyone to judge me or think I was going to be a piece of shit parent to my baby just because of something I am taking. I started taking the methadone again in April 2018 after a relapse and I haven’t used since. I don’t even smoke cigarettes. Obviously I wish I was able to be pregnant and not taking it because it is better for my baby but there are strict laws around your doctor or clinic reducing your dose while pregnant because it can be harmful to the baby. Anyways Ladies I just wanted to share how relieved I feel to finally put it out there. I am alive , clean , healthy , pregnant with my rainbow and couldn’t be more blessed.

( I know some don’t agree with taking the medicine so if you don’t have anything nice to say just move on to the next post. No need to be nasty ) I’ve been through so much in the past 14 months and I just want to be as open as honest as I can with my subscribers. After being shot 4 times , and loosing my son at 22w3d to a cord accident I think I’m even more brave and strong for not falling back into a relapse. I am so proud of myself. Here’s a picture of me and my hubby at the T mobile arena here in Vegas for the JLO concert! He surprised me with vip tickets !

If anyone would like to head to my channel to support me here is the link to my newest video

https://youtu.be/5cJUMYTiJ0A

Or head to YouTube and type in MommyMayo