I'm falling in love with a player 🤦🏼‍♀️ Dear God, Someone please help me

I'm falling hard for this guy which for me is crazy because I've been so emotionally closed off... well I've been seeing this guy casually for about 4 months now and at first it was supposed to be a 1 night thing for me, that quickly turned into every other weekend, which has now turned into us hanging out a few times a week without sleeping together except for the every other weekend when he takes me out. He's really really good in bed but he's also so damn romantic tho and it makes it so much worse, I told him I wasn't sure but I might be getting feelings for him and he ended up telling me that he really likes me and cares for me but he still isn't ready for a relationship yet (of course) because he got out of a 9 year relationship with his baby momma a bit ago, but he said that he'll tell me when he is because "I'm special" to him and he would want to have that with me 🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️.. and after I told him my feelings he's been getting closer and pulling me toward him a lot. But then he also decided to go sleep with someone else last weekend which he told me about as we agreed to tell each other, but I can't stop thinking about the fact that if I'm "that special" why would he need another bitches pussy 😭...

meanwhile I just stood up a date last night because I couldn't bring myself to be put in a situation were I might sleep with someone else now. I don't even want to and I realized it's because I'm really falling for him. I dunno how to deal with this, we were supposed to go on a date tonight but he's sick so instead we are going to the gym so he can train me and then were just gonna chill at home (no sex again because he's sick 🙃)... we're getting really close and its confusing me even more. I've thought about cutting off sex all together and just being friends until (if ever) he decides he wants a relationship but that's about the only solution I can come up with at this point. I mean I really cried over this man damn it 😭🙃😭🙃