I'm 98% sure I have hsv 1... pls tell me everything I need to know. I feel so dirty😭

I've had a tiny bump pop up on the top of my lip. It was white this morning so I tried to pop it.. now it looks like a tiny blister and its red around it and it feels kinda tingly. I feel so depressed😭 does this mean I can't kiss anybody without giving it to them?? I can't give oral anymore?? I wont ever be able to kiss my baby when I have one??😭 I'm really really stressing over this😔

What all advice, tips, info, and maybe some encouragement could yall give me? I feel like I'm gonna throw up😔