I think I’m done :(

I’m really tired and I’ve been struggling with depression and anxiety for the last 2 years and it’s just escalating into something I don’t want to experience 😞 I don’t want to be here anymore I really don’t...I don’t know how to stay alive I don’t have any reasons to stay alive I just I’m tired of school and being alone it’s like I have 3 friends but I’m so lonely and my anxiety is making me more home bound...I’ve reached out many times but I’m alone again...can’t afford a therapist cause I’m 14 I am trying so hard and I’m done i don’t want to seem attention seeking