Abortion this week

I’m getting an abortion this week and im so sad. I want this baby more than anything but I can’t. And it breaks my heart because I want nothing more than to be a mom, but I know financially and mentally I wouldn’t be able to keep it. Nobody knows accept my best friend and the baby daddy. He’s been really supportive, but I feel so alone because I can’t tell my family. I’m so scared and so sad but no one else understands. And I’m just going to have to keep this pain forever. I’m so scared I won’t be able to recover from this.