Just wanting to see if I'm "normal" how I'm feeling and if there's anyone going through something similar. I had my first pregnancy then miscarriage in October last year, I was 9.5 weeks and it was pretty horrific, as they all are but Iost a lot of blood, was flown out and had to have a DnC afterwards. It took a long time to physically recover as well as mentally, as my husband said they don't tell you about any of that stuff, the emotional rollercoaster is crazy. I found out I was pregnant again in March, but had an ovarian cyst that was causing a lot of issues. I miscarried at 8 weeks this time, my hormone levels kept rising and for a week it was hours in the ER, blood tests, pain and a potential ectopic. Finally they made the call to perform the DnC as well as remove the cyst. They ended up removing my right ovary as well.They thought they might need to remove the other one, but didn't 🙌

It has been 8 weeks and my body is recovering and I'm going ok, but I feel lost, like I don't know what I want to do with my life anymore, I have this constant feeling of failure and I need to try again to do it properly, I have lost the desire to do much (I blame the weather also) just feel empty and lost and lonely and just Shit. I feel angry at the people close to me for not understanding when I said "I'm fine" Some days aren't so bad, but some are just long. Wondering if this is a normal reaction and hopefully a passing phase.